It's all mental- or is it?

I'm in the midst of the two week wait.  I'll get a blood pregnancy test on the 15th, and it's hard not to think about it.  I was very excited when the two week wait started, but now I'm gloomy and slightly depressed.  I'm having all of my period symptoms. 

I know that most period symptoms can also be pregnancy symptoms, and that's true for many of my symptoms, but not all.  I get a few zits, I feel bloated with little cramps in my stomach, and then the tell tale sign is.. umm... let's say "digestive problems." 

Yesterday morning I woke up to my digestive problems, and I knew deep down that I'm not pregnant.  Then today the problem was still there, reinforcing my belief.  I know it's too early to tell, but I would actually bet a lot of money on the fact that I'm not pregnant.   I've been sick in the past, and when doctors told me I was fine, I knew there was something wrong- and one visit with a specialist confirmed my beliefs.  I'm just in tune with my body- I know what's going on before the doctors do.

Since I know I'm not pregnant, I'm in a weird state- I'm heartbroken but still hopeful.  I went to an amusement park yesterday with my husband and niece, and I stayed off all of the roller coasters.  I'm still not eating the things I shouldn't be eating.  I still take the reminding-you-that-you're-still-not-pregnant prenatal vitamins which I have been taking for two years.  All of this with the hope, prayers, and wishful thinking that maybe the universe is playing a trick and I'll end up being pregnant.  It's a glimmer of hope, but it grows dimmer by the day.

I wish I didn't have to work today, but I do- and actually that's probably a good thing, something to keep my mind off of this situation.  Now, how am I going to do this for the next 8 days?